Quickie

I have been working a lot so I haven't had much time to update how I have been doing. Let me just say this... When working, unless you are organized and prepared it is hard to stay on track. Also, working in retail as I do, I don't get breaks quite when I need them to keep on track. So when I am home I do my best to stay on schedule and while I am at work, I make for sure I make healthy choices.

I gave in a had a 16oz soda pop today tho and just one little bite of what my Mama had ordered for herself. That was my big NoNo for the day. I can live with that. :) Just going to keep focusing on the right and healthy options.

8 DAYS AND MELT DOWNS

Last Sunday I took my measurements and checked my weight. Not pretty, but it had to be done. Oh and I shared my lovely swimsuit pictures. Since then.....

Down almost 20# and I painted my toenails! :) I did an 8 day detox which was easy, then I had a stressful day so I slipped and had an emotional eating breakdown. Jumped back on the detox train, drink lots (and I mean at least 1 gal a day) of water. So here I am sitting here typing this and wondering if I feel any differently.

The answer is kind of. I know after 20# you would think that you  would feel differently but I only feel different in some spots. Like can you lose weight in your feet? My shoes and flip flops are feeling different. Also, the band on my undies are not as tight! That right there is always a plus! The seat belt in the car isn't as uncomfortable and I am excited to say my rings are loser on my fingers and they move around on their own. :)

Now that I am off of the detox and onto a new eating plan that will go for 4 weeks. I am sure the pounds will come off slower, but they will still be coming off. I should have started physical activity at the start of this, but I didn't. I will be starting soon and that will help kick the pounds off my body.

Here are my measurements for today as well.... Let's keep in mind that I measured myself last week but my husband did it this time. I am going to record the finding here, I will have hubs do it for now on to get more accurate readings. 

Neck  17" ( -.25")
Hips   56.5" ( - 1")
Waist  52.5" (-1.25")
Rt Bicep  18"  (-0")
Lt Bicep  17.5" (+.5")
Rt Thigh  32.75" (-1.25")
Lt Thigh  32" ( -1")
Rt Calf  18.2"  (-1.75")
Lt Calf  17.75" (-1.25")
Chest  56.5" (+1.5")  *Just my luck

And the count down begins in 28 or so days.... Another swimsuit shot! Fingers crossed that a noticeable difference can be seen!!!

LOVING ONESELF

It was brought to my attention that I try to cover up my insecurities with humor. Yes, in fact, I try to make people laugh when talking about myself. It seems to draw attention away from the fact that I am overweight. See right there, I could have made at least a half dozen "funny" comments but I won't. My friend was right. I need to stop with the "funny" because it doesn't build me up. I need positive and I myself am only feeding the negativity. 

So also on this journey I am taking, I will be trying to love myself for all that I am. I may never be stick thin. Actually that is NOT even my goal. I will always be curvy and I need to embrace my curves. Make them work for me. I have always had a bad self image but dammit... "I am beautiful" and eventually I will see that in myself.

Just like losing weight and getting healthy is not going to happen over night, neither is loving myself. I will slip up and put myself down plenty of times, I am sure. I will work hard on stopping that bad habit.

Because truly you can never be loved the way you want to be unless you love yourself.... ME.... Holy Crap, did I just say something profound or was that cheesy as Hell? Ok, I had to put some humor in this piece. 

I want to say Thank You to a great friend Mel. She has the balls to tell it like it is. That is the best thing I love about her. She sent me a message telling me to STOP. So I will, not just because she is right, but because I am sort of afraid of her if I don't! :)

LICKING THE SPOON AND OTHER BAD HABITS

What is your worst eating habit? I have plenty of BAD eating habits, not sure which one is my worst tho. Yesterday I was making a very delicious quadruple layered neapolitan birthday cake with homemade butter cream frosting and chocolate ganache.... I licked the freaking spoon... and the bowl.... and wanted to eat the whole freaking cake. I have been told that you should allow yourself a couple of cheats, but on day 2 of your new eating healthy routine.... NOT GOOD. I gave in, I felt pretty bad but I am over it now.

Who hasn't ever eaten off their child's plate? I am one of those moms that will eat the leftovers because why waste food. I bought my girls a couple kids meals yesterday and they didn't finish. I found myself reaching for the bag. I stopped. I didn't give in. Proud moment.

I was taking my youngest to school yesterday and had a crazy thought... "I already licked the spoon and that burrito I had last weekend was way yummy... why not?!"  I found myself in the Taco Bell parking lot. Thank the stars that the drive through line was very long and I was too lazy to get out to go in. I did not give in.... Proud moment.

Eating way too fast is another bad habit of mine. I could probably eat a 5 course meal in like 10 minutes. As long as I could remember, I have always scarfed down my food. I don't know why, but that needs to stop. I found myself doing it again today with my grilled chicken and broccoli, then I got a bad case of hiccups and I slowed down.

Everyone has bad habit when it comes to eating. I am working on changing mine. Not all will happen all at once, it will take time, just like everything else. I am proud of myself for noticing what needs changing and taking the steps to changing it. And for me to be proud of myself... that's something. :)

BTW.... THIS WAS THIS MORNING!!!!!

down 10# since Sunday Night.... :) I am happy, but not going to get too excited until I redo my measurements on next Monday... that's when I will be able to tell! *fingers crossed*And yes.... I still need someone to come paint my toenails, but maybe I will be able to bend over to do my own in no time! LOL

PEE-A-PALOOZA

So yesterday, I drank a bit more than a gallon of water. It was going well. Yesterday was good actually. Then all of a sudden, Potty break, potty break, potty break. I survived work and only wanted to harm a dozen or so people. It could have been worse.

This morning by 8 I had already had 1/2 gallon of water down. My oldest had a dentist appointment so off into town we went, took her to school and half way there, boy did I have to go. Bumps in the road are sure enhanced when you have an extremely full bladder. I had a few errands to run and then a stop at Walmart. Good Golly, I thought I was going to have to knock a few slow pokes out of my way. I needed to go and they were delaying my trip. My youngest was having a hard time keeping up with me and of course she has to yell "Mama, hurry up so you don't pee yourself". Got to love that kids don't have filters! LOL

I know all this water is key, and I am wondering if I need to invest in some adult diapers (joking) in case I have to cut it close again. So on that note..... gotta go!

oh btw... I think maybe I did in fact break my scale. I got on last night just to see... there is no way possible that I lost 15 pounds in 1 day, so I bought a new scale. I will weigh myself again and see what is going on. ;)

WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?!?!

GOOD GOLLY MISS MOLLY.... When in the hell did I get FAT???  I know, I know.... it happens over time and getting rid of it will not happen over night. I am well aware of that. My question is Why didn't anyone tell me? 

Well anyway, here I am...

It's ok, you can laugh, I don't mind. I am just over here crying. My tan lines are horrible! Golly Gee! I am also going to share my measurements and how much I actually weigh. This is almost as tough as sharing the pictures...

Scale level..... LYING.... there is no way I way 20#... Oh you mean it's 320# WOWZER.... That's all going to change. I am not looking for a quick fix, I am looking for a healthy change. At least I didn't break the scale and yes I know, I need a pedicure!

Well with this bit of info shared with all of you, my kind people who have been giving me support and encouragement, I wish you all a good night. Tomorrow I will start anew...

Sleep well and sorry for the nasty images right before bedtime.

POSTPONED

OK, so today didn't go as planned. I could come up with plenty of excuses why I couldn't start my new eating healthy plan today, but to completely honest.... I just wasn't prepared.

I worked until midnight last night and was completely bushed when I got home. I went straight to bed and had a very hard time sleeping more than 15 minutes or so at a time. My legs were restless and hurt so bad. My feet were throbbing. I did look over my list, but decided with today being soccer game and church day, it would be a tricky day to start. So I had an extra day to cheat.

I was sent this today. Once I get started I know all the obstacles will disappear. And did you know that many obstacles are mostly made up by oneself? Or at least in my case they are. I will make no more excuses to keep me from getting healthy, fit and happy.

So on this last night of FREEDOM, I will be eating a very nice large and loaded baked potato and a steak! Yep, sounds like a good last meal. LOL